Wednesday, May 18, 2011
I Walk Alone
Sometimes I feel alone. Not the alone type feeling that I seek to enjoy but the "no one understands what
I feel right now feeling". Even though I am surrounded by so many people
who love and support me, there are days I feel so detached from the world.
I feel cold, lost, angry, betrayed, even as if I am locked in a prison...................
but I do have the wisdom
to know that that feeling will pass and I will be freed.
Jeannie Solis
I feel right now feeling". Even though I am surrounded by so many people
who love and support me, there are days I feel so detached from the world.
I feel cold, lost, angry, betrayed, even as if I am locked in a prison...................
but I do have the wisdom
to know that that feeling will pass and I will be freed.
Jeannie Solis
PLAY IT LOUD
KM
Boulevard of Broken Dreams
-GreenDay-
"I walk a lonely road
The only one I have ever known
Don't know know where it goes
but it's home to me and I walk alone
I'm walking down the line
The only one I have ever known
Don't know know where it goes
but it's home to me and I walk alone
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone
Read between the lines of what's fucked up
And everything's all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone"
THE ANIMAL IN ME
ANIMAL I have BECOME
-THREE DAYS GRACE-
"So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal"
Somebody help me tame this animal"
PLAY IT LOUD
KM
KM
Friday, April 22, 2011
Breath of Fresh Air
There is something in the air..Aside from the usual everyday mundane of course..there is something else..I find myself enjoying the coolness of the night, the quiet breeze..I inhale the fresh air and I feel my lungs open up, it feels so good. I stand outside my door lately and just take it all in..I think of how nice it would be to have someone to share it with..like my sisters or my friends that I miss so much in the city..I know they would appreciate this simple pleasure, just as I do. I think about how we would be sitting out there, just enjoying it, maybe a little reminiscing but mostly just indulging in this peaceful time with nature..LR
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Relapse
My name is Lucy and I am a serial smoker..I chose the word serial because I think it has something to do with repetitive crimes that you commit. My crime is smoking..I am ashamed, disgusted and disappointed..Four years ago, I went "cold turkey" after about 15 years of smoking..I was so proud to quit this nasty habit..and I never touched one again..if your a smoker, you know how hard that is and what an accomplishment it would be if you stopped..People with habits, rely on their addiction in times of stress, socially, with a cup of coffee or tea, after eating and even (in my case) to take a "dump". I managed to go through ever day life without even thinking about smoking..the mere thought was not even a factor..I couldn't stand the smell any longer and I was now looking back, like "what was I thinking?" they stink and they kill you..(have you seen the commercials?!). With ALL that said..I just had a fckn cigarette..and I enjoyed it..True, I have to get dressed, wait for the baby (which kills me, and fills me with sooooo much guilt) to fall asleep, go outside, smoke a "cancer stick", go back inside..take off my clothes wash up (before my boo gets home and has a fit) spray the entire house (I think thats the guilt because i was outside with the door closed), light candles, brush my teeth, and then sit and torment myself with "what the hell is wrong with me?" ( which btw I think I say that phrase too much, lol). So why am I smoking again? I refuse to buy a pack, and I can take a toke or two and be done, but the fact is I am enjoying them again..I keep telling myself, stop! this is ridiculous, you don't need them and all of this is not worth it..not to mention the fact that my man tells me the other day " i don't want my baby to see you with a tube coming out of your throat cause your dying"..so I sigh...how can I argue with that?...But what is it? Is it that I spend too much time at home and that is like my "taboo" thing..my moment...(thats an excuse)..everything I can think of is an excuse..but the fact is I am doing it..and I need to put it out for good...AGAIN!
-LR
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Where the Fck Is Tarzan?
Where the Fck Is Tarzan? by Milan B on Polyvore.com
Jane is searching for her man and seems frustrated right,
because the movies we watched and the fairytales told to us ladies when we were younger are probably not gonna happen. He is probably not coming to save you. In the movie Tarzan, he was created to depict an intelligent, emotional and morally aware hero. I'm not male bashing but how many men do you know who have all these characteristics rolled into one. Why is it that Jane could only find this kind of man deep in the jungle. In real life, I find it true that you do have to cut through some shrubs and go on some crazy adventures before finding that "right" man who brings out your animal instincts. One thing is for sure, Tarzan did teach Jane some tricks and how to survive in this jungle so in the end he taught her how to save herself all while becoming a fabulous fashion inspiration..........
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